(via The Reconstructionists: Week Eleven)
(Source: m-a-n-i-p-u-l-a-r-e, via moonsetrocket)
This is for you. I don’t know you. I felt something special when I met you. It was just that little voice that told me to keep trying with you and don’t give up with this friendship. I was getting too close. I didn’t get the chance to talk with you, but I wanted to know more about you, I wanted to know you. I was trying hard.
Now I see my big mistake. Words are just words when there is no real communication, smiles are just smiles when they don’t mean anything. Things come natural. Things come along with time. I was forcing it. I was confused and I was feeling pressure. You rejected me and I didn’t even care because I wasn’t acting like me, I wasn’t being me.
I was wrong in telling you my thoughts. I was wrong because you don’t know me and that’s not how it works. I was lost! Completely lost! Now I see it with different eyes. I feel more mature, but it still hurts because we never talked when I needed. I was thinking bad about something that was not real at all.
Now I’m writing my future. I put my worries away. I’m living day by day, step by step. I’m not hurrying because I learned that there is no need to hurry in life. We all know is short, but if you don’t live the moment you are not living at all. Keep your mind open, keep your postive thinking and take control of your mind.
Stay alive, stay positive, stay breathing.
Why am I always going to the wrong person? Why do I like to waste my time with someone that doesn’t even care?! Why do I waste myself? Do I like to feel like this?
I’m not worrying anymore. Everytime I do I take the wrong decisions. Im inmature and I dont have control over my words and actions. I will put all my thoughts to God because only He knows me, only He loves me.
I love people, I get close to quick. I need to forget the past, forgive what was never supposed to happen, forgive what was never a mistake, forgive myself. I don’t want to feel pain. I want to feel alive. I want to breathe.
Not making fake stories. No more fake. I am true to myself and to God. I am tempted by the suffer because I need to know how it is to be a completely sinner and how it is to be forgiven. I need to feel guilty and ask for forgiveness. God, forgive me.
I am alone but I can do this if I know you are there. Help me to find you. I feel like I need to learn to be alone and to stand by myself. I am strong enough, I am enough, my mind is enough. I am on top. I love myself and I will start to love others.
I will change my mind, we are what we think, what we feel. Take control over your mind and you will feel freedom. Take it. Feel it. Love it.
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“We ordered her those pants, and as soon as they arrived, she cut off the bottoms and made a pair of gloves.”
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I don’t want things to be like this. But hell yeah, I can make it work. Can I, right? right??????